May 6 — a very special day. The entry today is for Claire. It’s personal — read it if you want…..
Today would be our anniversary. I just wrote “would” be, but the truth is you’re still so present in my life it would be wrong to speak of you in past tense. You’re not “gone” — at least not in the way people think. Maybe physically — but you’re still in the air I breathe, the memories that never go away and the ache that just won’t leave.
Our lives are forever intertwined — the inside jokes, the memories —so many of you. Of us.
Everywhere I look — there we are. You and I. So many hours of our lives spent woven together.
The laughs. The heartbreaks. The love. The tears. The adventures. Year after year. Our lives together.
And then — you were gone in an instant. But all we built together and shared can’t all just unravel like that.
I can’t just stop loving — I can’t split my life into “before and after.”
You are very much still here within me. I can never forget such an irreplaceable part of my life.
All that time — together.You’re the one in all of my best memories. My wins were your wins. Yours were mine. You are always in my mind and in the hugs I can still feel somehow….
Some days I may look frayed and tattered — because losing you wore me down…. so much. But I treasure and hold tightly what is still dear to me — our memories together.
You and I.
Me and you.
Happy anniversary, Menoi. You are loved beyond measure, missed beyond reason, and remembered always.
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